HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS.
Actually it’s Feburary, but it is what is it is. Thanks for coming back and looking forward to new things within this new year of infinite possiblilities.
On that note, I’ve decided back in december that I should take some time off a bit to clear my head and come up with things to talk about. I might as well talk about my weakest of weaknesses I’ve have in my life, appecting personal criticism. I’ve never was and continue to face that side of me until it was addressed years ago when someone witihin a group I was part of very much took offense of how I depited a panel of a female character looking a certain way. He called me addressing that and in my usual fashion told him off about it, then he called me and said I was out of the situation because of my behavior towards what was addressed. I’ve always had this problem with people addressing their views towards how I do things and always do this and always do that. While I always take what people say and make an oppossite spin, it just earks me inside, pretty much make me feel unique inside.
Almost as if I had a me against the world complex sometimes. Over the years, whenever some person or another has an opinion or had a thing or two that just makes them uncomfortable around me.
I have been talking to therapists for years. I’ve spoken about myself in various forms but personal criticism is just something I should try to address more often. I don’t always make it my business to become someone to not be around with, and if that was the case, I wouldn’t done the things I’ve done the last several years, like completing my GED diploma and going to college and stuff like that.
I don’t know of others within my family circle have the same issue, and I shoudl sit down with a few and see if I’m not alone in this issue.
I shouldn’t take these criticism to heart, but it’s how it’s directed to me that sometimes gets my impulses go nuts at times. Sometimes I wonder when and if I become famous or something and someone of the blue that I don’t personally know gives a very harsh review of something I’m involved with, how should I take it? How should I handle it. Wish I had the answer for that to share but I hope to find it as my decent into my later half of my existance begins.
Of course, I’m imperfect and incapable for being that for anyone. I have to figure it out and just let those opinions be an open door, once open and quickly close to leave it alone.
And also the fact that I don’t have of friends to go around nowadays. They either die or have gone on to no longer venture in my life any longer for various reasons. More on this some other time, but consider this a preview into my serious side. Sure I can be funny at times and scarcastic, but I can get serious for those who can take the time to listen to what I have to say.
Next time:
My views on Valentine’s Day and why this day is one of the holidays that I really don’t care about.
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